Paul Whatuira is one of Kiwi league's most famous and infamous stars.
He represented New Zealand and won two NRL premierships - he was one of the best.
But in 2009, he hit rock bottom and contemplated taking his own life after he was locked up in a British psychiatric hospital for four weeks.
Becoming a father triggered memories from his childhood which developed into depression, and from there he fell into psychosis.
For five years he was heavily medicated, and he was told by psychologists he would be on medication for the rest of his life.
But in 2014, he decided to step away from professional help, educate his mind and tune out the negative thoughts.
His journey to recovery and happiness has been long and painful, but now he's mentoring tomorrow's stars and young players who face the same pressures which once threatened to destroy him.
The 35-year-old former league player is back in Auckland for Mental Health Week and sat down with Story.
Watch the video for the full Story report.
If you or someone you know needs help, please contact one of the below services. And remember, it’s always okay to ask for help.
Lifeline 24/7 Helpline – 0800 543 354
Lifeline – 0800 543 354 or (09) 5222 999 within Auckland
Lifeline Suicide helpline – 0800 TAUTOKO
Lifeline – 0800 543 354 or (09) 5222 999 within Auckland
Free text The Lowdown – 5626
Or checkout their website thelowdown.co.nz
Alcohol & Drug Helpline – 0800 787 797
Depression Helpline - http://www.depression.org.nz/ and http://www.depression.org.nz/rural
Youthline – 0800 376 633, free text 234 or email talk@youthline.co.nz
