Lamar Odom pens essay over cheating and 'doing coke every day'

Lamar Odom
Odom describes himself as a "scumbag". Photo credit: File

Lamar Odom has penned an emotional essay for sports website The Players Tribune, describing how he was a "scumbag" to ex-wife Khloe Kardashian.

In the piece released on Thursday (local time), Lamar explains how his cocaine addiction completely controlled his life leading up to the near fatal overdose at a Nevada brothel in 2015.

He also talked about how he cheated on Kardashian and the moment he finally realised how much his life had spiralled out of control.

"When I woke up in the hospital room in Nevada, I couldn't move. I couldn't talk. I was trapped inside my own body. My throat hurt like hell. I looked down and I had all these tubes coming out of my mouth," Odom wrote.

"My ex-wife was there in the room with me. After all the shit I had done, I was surprised to see her. Honestly, that's when I knew that I was probably in bad shape."

Odom detailed what led him to the hospital, where he had 12 strokes and two heart attacks.

He described how for a while, he was "doing coke every day".

"Pretty much every second of free time that I had, I was doing coke. I couldn't control it."

"One of the darkest places I've ever been was when I was in a motel room, getting high with this chick, and my wife (at the time) walked in. That probably was like rock bottom.

"You know, I was being a scumbag. Nothing else I got for that. No excuses. No bullshit. That's just the truth.

"My dick and my habit took me down all the roads that you don't ever wanna go down."

While Odom writes that he's sober now, he says it's "an everyday struggle" to stay that way.