Chrissy Teigen has reflected on the loss of her baby son Jack on the week he was supposed to be born, telling Ellen DeGeneres that despite her pain, the experience was "transformative" for her.
Teigen made an appearance on The Ellen Show via video conference call, explaining that she's still "coming to terms" with the death of her third child, who she was forced to deliver when she was only 20 weeks pregnant.
Four months on, Teigen said she's still met with "constant reminders" of the heartbreak, including her maternity clothes that she bought for her eighth and ninth month of pregnancy.
While she's still in therapy, the model and cookbook author told DeGeneres: "Somehow, I think I'm a better person now."
"It was a really transformative thing for me and in a way, he really saved me, because I don't think that I would've discovered therapy and then sobriety and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person," she explained.
Teigen said that being Thai and growing up in a household that was open about grief had helped her to cope, and that it was "so beautiful" to see how her kids Luna and Miles talked about their little brother.
"We'll be going to the beach or something and they'll say, 'Is baby Jack with us right now? Do you think he's up in the clouds?' It's just so beautiful and so sweet."
The Lip Sync Battle host said that she had the "best support system ever" and had gained an "incredibly amount of empathy" from the ordeal.
"What you learn through it about yourself is such a wild, incredible thing, and this week, we're thinking about [Jack] especially," she said.