Cardi B breaks down telling court she was 'extremely suicidal' after YouTuber's rumours

Warning: This article discusses suicidal thoughts and may be distressing to some readers. 

Cardi B has revealed she considered taking her own life as a result of rumours spread about her by YouTuber Tasha K. 

In an emotional court testimony, the 'WAP' rapper said that the things Tasha K said about her - including allegations Cardi B was a sex worker and had contracted multiple STIs - left her "defeated and depressed". 

"I wanted to commit suicide over the things [they said]... I didn't want to sleep with my husband," she told the court, according to TMZ.

"[I felt like] I didn't deserve my kid," she added, referencing her three-year-old daughter Kulture, who was born around the time Tasha K's claims were being made. 

Cardi B claimed she had developed fatigue, anxiety, weight loss and migraines as a result of the stress of the situation, which saw Tasha K relentlessly continue to share content about the Grammy winner to her nearly 1 million YouTube followers. 

"Only an evil person could do that shit," Cardi B said, before apologising for her language. The 29-year-old mother of two reportedly broke down in tears while taking the stand. 

Billboard reports that Cardi B explained she had never previously felt suicidal, despite battling poverty, homelessness and physical abuse in her younger years. She eventually sought professional help from a therapist. 

The hip-hop star also denied she had herpes - a claim that Tasha K made on more than one occasion. Cardi B said the rumour took a significant toll on her mental health, particularly when she posted a photo of herself kissing her daughter on the lips and received backlash from social media users who believed it. 

Cardi B's testimony comes after the rapper filed a lawsuit in 2019 that alleged Tasha K defamed her with dozens of YouTube videos filled with explicit and shocking claims. 

Earlier in the trial, Tasha K reportedly admitted to knowingly publishing lies about the 'Bodak Yellow' star in order to generate money for her business. 

The trial is ongoing. 

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