American rapper Kid Cudi has announced he's checking himself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges, in an emotional open message to his fans.
"I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me," he posted on Facebook. "If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. There's a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times.
"My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can't make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and I'm tired of being held back in my life."
This isn't the first time Kid Cudi - real name Scott Mescudi - has openly discussed his battles with depression.
"I thought about how much of a struggle it has been the past eight years, to be in the news and pretend to be happy when, really, I was living a nightmare," he told Billboard in April.
"I have everything I ever dreamed of in terms of stability. But I hadn't been living that reality, because depression was f***ing me up."
Kid Cudi says he hopes to be out of rehab in time for the ComplexCon festival in November - and ended his Facebook post with a poignant message.
"Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. I'll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I'm sorry."
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